Feelings of being broken.

Well as all of you know I’m expecting baby number two October of this year and I have a daughter named Naomi that will be 3 October 1st. When I found out I was pregnant I was like any mom to be I was excited but at the same time scared. When I had Naomi the birth I ended up with wasn’t the one that I had planned or wanted. I ended up only laboring for 12 hrs before the doctor got tired of waiting and duped me into a c-section. I had issues and still do with the birth of Naomi. But with the start of this pregnancy I get a second chance to try to have the birth I had envisioned an to change my view of my body. Lots of people don’t understand that thought c-sections are great when needed they can leave a woman feeling robbed and broken that they couldn’t birth the way they were intended to. I had a lot of people tell me that all that mattered was a healthy baby and that does matter but how I felt about myself mattered too. As I approach 7 weeks pregnant I am looking forward to my first visit with the birth center and my first visit in a few more weeks with my doula and seeing my baby on the ultrasound. I think that even when this class is over I will continue this blog as a way to express my feelings and my journey to my Vaginal Birth After C-section or VBAC. I hope that this turns into something not only for a grade but something that will help show other woman that with the right support anything is possible. And to think this all started 2 years and 4 months ago with a beautiful little girl coming into the world. Image  

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Bio

My name is Tiffany a little about me to start I’m 21 will be 22 in March. I am a mommy of a 2 year old named Naomi who was born October 1st 2010 an she is my world. I married my middle school sweetheart and we will be married 4 years June 20th his name is Brandan. As you can see from my blog title I am expecting again and my estimated due date is October 7th, 2013. I love working with children and I will be working towards my associates degree this year. I love to read mostly romance or romance mystery books. I enjoy spending time with my daughter and husband and we like to go camping and to go play in the creek near our house. I am looking forward to being a mommy again come October though I didn’t really plan for both children to be born in October.